Baby

[bobquasit]

There's a baby in the office.

A little while ago I saw someone walk by holding a baby. It was tiny; couldn't have been more than three months old at the most.

Just now I heard one of those reflexive little baby cries from far away. My heart jumped in my chest, and instantly I wanted a new baby so very badly.

I'm sad now.

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It's really up to Teri. Sebastian's birth was awfully hard on her, so hard that it would be wrong of me to pressure her to have another.

On the other hand, she knows that I've always wanted more kids. And I suspect that as Sebastian gets older, there will be times that she'll consider changing her mind - she's done it before.

In the year or two after Sebastian was born there were several times that she decided that she wanted another baby, but she was changing her mind so rapidly that I thought it would be unfair for me to take her up on it. Now, of course, I know that she was bipolar, and it really WOULD have been unfair. But at the time she hadn't yet been diagnosed.

She's talked about adoption, but I don't want to do that. I know it's a good thing to do, etc. etc., but at the risk of sounding awful I want my own children, not someone else's. It's arrogant, I know, but I want to perpetuate my genes - I think rather highly of them. :D