Arisia

I've been left off of most of the program, but my understanding is that I should be on the following panels:

DAY	TIME	LOCATION	PANEL
Friday	9PM	Holmes	Fredric Brown
Saturday	5PM	Back Bay	Party Genesis Scenarios
Saturday	6PM	Holmes	Cordwainer Smith
Sunday	12 Noon	Constitution	Fan Web Design

I will admit to being concerned; it shouldn't bother me, but it does. "Party Genesis Scenarios", in particular, is my concept - I wrote the original article, and as far as I know no one has ever done as much as I did with the concept (or anything much at all, come to think of it). I know it's just an error...and it's silly to feel proprietary about an idea. But there are so few really original ideas that I've come up with that it's hard not to feel possessive of the ones that I have...

Arisia

I've been left off of most of the program, but my understanding is that I should be on the following panels:

DAY	TIME	LOCATION	PANEL
Friday	9PM	Holmes	Fredric Brown
Saturday	5PM	Back Bay	Party Genesis Scenarios
Saturday	6PM	Holmes	Cordwainer Smith
Sunday	12 Noon	Constitution	Fan Web Design

I will admit to being concerned; it shouldn't bother me, but it does. "Party Genesis Scenarios", in particular, is my concept - I wrote the original article, and as far as I know no one has ever done as much as I did with the concept (or anything much at all, come to think of it). I know it's just an error...and it's silly to feel proprietary about an idea. But there are so few really original ideas that I've come up with that it's hard not to feel possessive of the ones that I have...

A Sudden Realization

I just realized something: This year, there won't be an Arisia for me.

I'm not talking about the cancellation of the RuneQuest panel, or the paucity of roleplaying panels in general. The problem is that I won't be staying at the hotel. What's more, I don't think I'll be staying in Boston. I only have one panel after 7PM, and that's a 9PM one on Friday; there's a chance that I won't be able to make the last commuter rail home, so I may have to stay with my parents that night.

(The deadly cold makes going out every night a very unappetizing prospect, by the way.)

But my panels on Saturday and Sunday aren't particularly late or early. So I have no excuse to stay in town.

I can't tell you how much I wish that we had a hotel room this year; that Teri and Sebastian could stay with me. But we can't. There just isn't any money.

And I can't bear to spend three days and nights away from my baby boy.

So now I know that this year there won't be an Arisia for me. I'll go in and do my panels, say "hi" to my friends, look at the merchandise and food that I can't afford...and then I'll go home again. It's not Arisia for me.

Maybe next year.

A Sudden Realization

I just realized something: This year, there won't be an Arisia for me.

I'm not talking about the cancellation of the RuneQuest panel, or the paucity of roleplaying panels in general. The problem is that I won't be staying at the hotel. What's more, I don't think I'll be staying in Boston. I only have one panel after 7PM, and that's a 9PM one on Friday; there's a chance that I won't be able to make the last commuter rail home, so I may have to stay with my parents that night.

(The deadly cold makes going out every night a very unappetizing prospect, by the way.)

But my panels on Saturday and Sunday aren't particularly late or early. So I have no excuse to stay in town.

I can't tell you how much I wish that we had a hotel room this year; that Teri and Sebastian could stay with me. But we can't. There just isn't any money.

And I can't bear to spend three days and nights away from my baby boy.

So now I know that this year there won't be an Arisia for me. I'll go in and do my panels, say "hi" to my friends, look at the merchandise and food that I can't afford...and then I'll go home again. It's not Arisia for me.

Maybe next year.

Think positively?

Okay. Apparently I should try to think positively about Arisia this year. This is a challenge for me, because A) it has been THREE YEARS since I was able to have a really good Arisia, for various and sundry reasons, and B) I already know that what I will have this year will be far, far less than my ideal Arisia.

Why?

This year, there will be:

• No hotel room


• No dining out


• No shopping


• No money


• No dancing


• No white tie and tails


• No costumes


• No Sebastian

That list covers 80% of what makes Arisia the high point of my year. It's awfully hard to swallow the remainder and try to make the best of it. Goddamn it, things should NOT be like this.

But I have to face facts, and the facts are: I can go in with a sour attitude, just hit the panels, and accept that I'm fucked once again,

OR

I can somehow try to have the most fun with what's left.

That's seeing my friends, doing the panels (assuming that the panel situation is fixed up), looking at some cool things (even if I can't buy any of them)...I don't know. Maybe I'll try to run a game or something on Saturday.

I HATE trying to think positively. It fucking pisses me off.

I don't deserve this.

Think positively?

Okay. Apparently I should try to think positively about Arisia this year. This is a challenge for me, because A) it has been THREE YEARS since I was able to have a really good Arisia, for various and sundry reasons, and B) I already know that what I will have this year will be far, far less than my ideal Arisia.

Why?

This year, there will be:

• No hotel room


• No dining out


• No shopping


• No money


• No dancing


• No white tie and tails


• No costumes


• No Sebastian

That list covers 80% of what makes Arisia the high point of my year. It's awfully hard to swallow the remainder and try to make the best of it. Goddamn it, things should NOT be like this.

But I have to face facts, and the facts are: I can go in with a sour attitude, just hit the panels, and accept that I'm fucked once again,

OR

I can somehow try to have the most fun with what's left.

That's seeing my friends, doing the panels (assuming that the panel situation is fixed up), looking at some cool things (even if I can't buy any of them)...I don't know. Maybe I'll try to run a game or something on Saturday.

I HATE trying to think positively. It fucking pisses me off.

I don't deserve this.